|Sick babies are so pitiful; we must remind ourselves that God WILL take care of them and us!|
I never considered the sacrifice of motherhood before it happened to me. Instead, I had an extremely romantic idea of pregnancy, child rearing and everything that went along with it. I begged for a child the months after marriage and when I found out I was expecting, I was thrilled.
Then the sickness hit. For me it wasn't the typical nausea that lasts the first trimester. I felt horrible for nine months and afterwards with thyroid, adrenal and hormone problems that seemed to have no cure. I later found out that pregnancy can trigger autoimmune disease like it did in my case. But at that time I only knew I had every awful symptom I could imagine and no answers. My previous ideas of happily planning for a baby were replaced with fighting exhaustion and sickness just to eat and get dressed everyday.
This has been my story the past four years. There are days and even weeks when I feel significantly better, but my illnesses always hang on.
And there is nothing wrong with that. I know that ALOT of people suffer ALOT more!
We live in a valley of tears! Even if it's not physical suffering, many women have poor or broken marriages, financial struggles, and sick children. Still, it doesn't make it any easier. It is so hard to watch people we love, especially children, going through hard times, illness and even death.
We are so blessed to be Catholic. From a Catholic perspective, every trial and suffering is put in the right place. We see the value of suffering. Even when we are humanly not ready to accept it, inside we know that God has allowed suffering in our lives only to force us to turn to Him. God wants us to beg favors from Him and Our Blessed Mother with Confidence. This makes me think of the girl with terminal brain cancer who committed suicide a few weeks ago and how sad, sad, sad that story was. She did not believe God would take care of her, so she took her life into her own hands and ended it. She literally killed hope. And isn't hope that we'll one day enjoy Heaven the whole purpose of life?
What do you think about suffering? Do you agree that the Catholic Lady, mother or otherwise must practice total abandonment?